thepassiontofight.

A year ago, you left me and I knew that I gave you more Pressure & Stress rather than Love. All I know is giving you the best , but i didn't realise that all this could turn out to be pressure to you. After the break-up,I enter new relationship and lie to myself telling myself that I had let go of you. I lie and lie to myself and ended up i hurt them,To those that i had hurt I am very very Sorry I know a single word "Sorry" would not earn a forgiveness from you all.

In my heart I know very well that i had never never let go of you at all and I admit that I still have feeling for you, after you know that i entered a new relationship and this had made you feel that I could easily enter a new relationship and you might think that my feeling for you wasnt very strong.I am to be blame for my childish thinkings.

Maybe I really choose to lie to myself again and again keep telling myself I had clearly forgotten about you and let go of you already, when I knew that you did wanted to patch back with me BUT due to me been in a new relationship you chose to give up. When i knew about it i asked myself why?? why did I lie to my own feeling and went into another relationship? why I didnt wait longer? But when all this "why" came to my mind It already been too late, you already given up on me...at that moment I only know that i had regretted and I knew that there is no more chance for me to have you back in my life as you already told me what you want in your life and you do not need me anymore...I was lost and I didn't know what to do...Even though I told myself I will not shed anymore tears after you left and be strong but ended up I failed. Wearing a mask everyday and everywhere I go putting a smile on my face and showing eveyone that i am fine I am okie , zhen de hen xin ku..

When ever i see brusies on my hand i will think if you are around I know you will sure get angry and scold me and forbid me from punching the wall and hurting myself. When ever i see those brusies , image of you would appear and reminds me that you hated to see injuries on me.

I wrote this entires is not to seek any attentions or what, I just want to say everything out and would wish that you would return. I kept all this to myself and kept lying to myself but in my heart you are always still there..If you were to pass by my blog and saw this I don't want you to get affected.you could pretend you never see.. but..

All I want to say is I am still waiting for you and I knew about the mistake I made.
I sincerly hope that you would give me a chance again .

I Think this is all i could think of haha!, very random thinking..
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'Will forge on it until he gets what he wants'
WELCOME Willsontan. Borned on 2nd May 1989. Currently 19 years old. Horoscope Taurus. Studying at NYP. PASSION-MUAY THAI Now Playing: 萧敬藤 - 原谅我	SHOUT HERE
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I am back to training.. Saturday, August 30, 2008, 12:03 AM The Road to Hilltop Training Ground.. Had been half a year since i last came here for training, today, Went back for training with my brother Wilson Goh!.. First , had some warm up , stretching exercises I can feel that feeling of the sweat and blood I had left here. After around 30 minutes of Warm up and chit chat with some of my friends there, we headed for our jogging. JOGGING wasnt a joke at all, I had lost all my stamina . The first round I was quite alright as I could keep up with my friends but when it comes to the 2nd round I think I was pushing real real hard to complete the stairs and finally I reached the top.. I felt that I really lost my stamina which I think I really need to work hard on it, soon after when I was done with my jogging Shifu came. I greeted him and started doing push-ups and sit-ups and some neck exercises, Done more than 5 sets... Around 8pm the real training came, shadowing was the basic of Muay Thai. shifu asked us to have some water and I think that was the last time i had a break and water, from 8pm - 9.30pm had alot alot alot of shadowing..shadowing and shadowing.. and during the shadowing period My left and right legs muscle suddenly feel like it gonna cramp real soon..but i still endure and control till one time i use too much strength my left leg muscle pop up and cramp I shouted to my shifu and help came.. one of the fighters there helped me massage and relax my muscle.. He saved my leg.. That feeling wasnt good at all, after awhile I wanted to Join back the training but I wasnt allowed to do so..=( shifu asked me not to do anymore.. so i stand there and see what he is teaching.. I remember what shifu always tell us this " NO PAIN NO MUAY THAI?" izzit must see pain than got muay thai than i think i did it =X wahahaha! I got to push myself in order to do well! I wanna fight!! FIGHT FIGHT!!! Exam had over...Holiday had came... Thursday, August 28, 2008, 10:45 PM After Two weeks of Hardcore mugging.. ALL MY PAPERS ARE OVER OVER OVER!!! now I am having my one month and a half holiday... so what is in my plan for holiday? Muay Thai training, SSN planning , Relax myself, maybe part time job! this is all.. too tired le.. byebye... wonder did u see my blog ? i guess not... A Mistake Made In Life=( Friday, August 22, 2008, 10:24 PM A year ago, you left me and I knew that I gave you more Pressure & Stress rather than Love. All I know is giving you the best , but i didn't realise that all this could turn out to be pressure to you. After the break-up,I enter new relationship and lie to myself telling myself that I had let go of you. I lie and lie to myself and ended up i hurt them,To those that i had hurt I am very very Sorry I know a single word "Sorry" would not earn a forgiveness from you all. In my heart I know very well that i had never never let go of you at all and I admit that I still have feeling for you, after you know that i entered a new relationship and this had made you feel that I could easily enter a new relationship and you might think that my feeling for you wasnt very strong.I am to be blame for my childish thinkings. Maybe I really choose to lie to myself again and again keep telling myself I had clearly forgotten about you and let go of you already, when I knew that you did wanted to patch back with me BUT due to me been in a new relationship you chose to give up. When i knew about it i asked myself why?? why did I lie to my own feeling and went into another relationship? why I didnt wait longer? But when all this "why" came to my mind It already been too late, you already given up on me...at that moment I only know that i had regretted and I knew that there is no more chance for me to have you back in my life as you already told me what you want in your life and you do not need me anymore...I was lost and I didn't know what to do...Even though I told myself I will not shed anymore tears after you left and be strong but ended up I failed. Wearing a mask everyday and everywhere I go putting a smile on my face and showing eveyone that i am fine I am okie , zhen de hen xin ku.. When ever i see brusies on my hand i will think if you are around I know you will sure get angry and scold me and forbid me from punching the wall and hurting myself. When ever i see those brusies , image of you would appear and reminds me that you hated to see injuries on me. When ever I am at certain place that i been with you or even doing things image of you will still appear.My heart will sank when i pass by places which i been there with you. All i have to blame is only ME for not been able to understand you well. I wrote this entires is not to seek any attentions or what, I just want to say everything out and would wish that you would return. I kept all this to myself and kept lying to myself but in my heart you are always still there..If you were to pass by my blog and saw this I don't want you to get affected.you could pretend you never see.. but.. All I want to say is I am still waiting for you and I knew about the mistake I made. I sincerly hope that you would give me a chance again . nefil emevigrof? WHAT I WANT? WHAT I WISH FOR? Thursday, August 21, 2008, 10:09 PM What I want? <- This question appear in everyone mind before? Get good GPA. Enter a Local Universary. A Match of Muay Thai. Bike & Car License. Bike ( SP or Dirt Bike ). Go Thailand for Trainning. More Muay Thai boxers. More $$$. Wahahaha !! WHO DONT WANT? I Think this is all i could think of haha!, very random thinking.. ANY KIND SOULS PASS BY MY BLOG AND SEE THIS TAG ME AND TELL ME WHICH ONE U CAN HELP ME ACHIEVE?! WAHAHAHAHA STUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDYSTUDY!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! PASSED BTT! Sunday, August 17, 2008, 12:50 AM Driving & Riding Tests *~~PASSED BASIC THEORY TEST ON~~ 14/08/08* PASSED** MOTORBIKE TRAFFIC POLICE TEST 04/09/08 FINAL THEORY TEST ON 06/10/08 End Of Sem ~~Internet Programming~~ 25/08/08 Not very good=( ~~Computing Mathematics 2~~ 27/08/08 ~~Operating System Management~~ 28/08/08 A test quite true no harm trying it!=) Friday, August 15, 2008, 4:40 PM Saw this test at friend friend blog.. so try it http://www.ipersonic.com Determined Realists like to bear responsibility and welcome challenges. They are stable, reliable persons. External contacts are very important to them; they mix well and are very active. They are excellent organisers and are very happy when things are done correctly and punctually; they can quickly react impatiently if others are not as conscientious, orderly and dutiful as they are. They prefer structured work which produces visible results quickly to abstract, long-drawn-out processes. Determined Realists have no problem with routine as long as it serves efficiency. However, they very much dislike unexpected and unpredictable occurrences which mess up their careful plans. Once they have committed themselves to a cause they do this with dedication and are willing to make considerable sacrifices for it. Determined Realists do not avoid conflicts and criticism but face up to them and look for solutions. As they have a keen eye for the errors and shortcomings of others and are often quick at expressing criticism, they sometimes rub people up the wrong way especially when they lose their temper and jump to conclusions. Due to their marked sense of justice they are quickly willing to correct themselves and never take offence if someone speaks to them frankly. You do not have to seek hidden motives with them; you always know where you are. Determined Realists are often found in executive positions as they combine commitment, competence and the ability to assert themselves. In their spare time, they often also accept responsibility in clubs and other institutions. Traditions rate highly with Determined Realists. They attend every family event and never forget a birthday or wedding anniversary. Family and friends are very important to them. With their open, communicative manner, they find it easy to get to know people and have a large circle of friends and acquaintances. They are never superficial, but reliable and loyal friends who are always there when they are needed. Determined Realists take their relationships very seriously - they dream of finding a partner for life. In a love relationship, they seek above all stability and loyalty and here, too, they are willing to invest a lot in a harmonious togetherness. Determined Realists master crises or difficult phases with composure; they would never think of breaking a promise given. As a partner, one can always rely on their support. this is the result of ME -Determined Realist Enjoy=) Common test over next EOS papers... Wednesday, August 13, 2008, 10:21 AM 08/08/08 Last paper for Common test. Rush over to viven house to get a hair cut. after that went home to get ready for brothers birthday celebration at pasir ris costa sand. Checked in around 5plus.. Those which reached early.. Cake Cutting Session Singing Birthday Song ~~( next door also singing but we purposely sing damn loud and sang alot of time=X)~~ Junfu & Weidi Making a Wish.. Birthday Guys -left JUNFU right WEIDI SABO SESSION!! a thing that we nv fails to do! LOL! The Masterpiece done by us=) After all the cutting cake session, Jun fu 's sisters asked us to play card games and loser were to drink all the stuff they mix in that cup. I think after all i drank quite a lot, smelly Eve lose le dont drink ask me help her drink and gave me so much. I got a bit blur after the game but didnt got drunk, the mahjong sessions started so ended some of us got nothing to do.. I went out of the chalet with a cup of liquor and started drinking a bit with paul, than paul came up with games to play with them BUT he failed LOL!... We ended up playing lots of games like 007 , 7-up, Murderer, roti parta,da yu xiao yu , heart attack...all this games didnt last long..We got bored after that and I stopped playing. After all this was a wonderful gathering for all of us.. *Great Party brothers!* 090808-130808 nothing much happened.. Stayed at home these few days.. EOS coming le.. EVERYONE JIAYOU! =) Common test period Thursday, August 7, 2008, 10:40 AM Sorry for not Updating for this few days.. Common test period. Yesterday Wednesday 6/08/08 Electronic Communication Paper. Tomorrow Friday 8/8/08 Communication Skill 2 Paper. End of Aug 3 major paper.. will not update until i am free... selfish or not? Sakae buffet! Sunday, August 3, 2008, 12:04 AM Friday 1st of Aug Morning, met all of them for Breakfast at S11 after that headed back to school for my WDD quiz and lab test. About the WDD lab finished fast and did well, after that we took train to Changi Airport T2! The journey there was long but julian & I were very used to it! had to let u all taste the travelling from School to our home! On the Mrt The Girls.. Us @ Airport T2 Sakae Viewing Mall T2 Something damn funny happened when we are eating at sakae.. I ordered the wrong order and guess how much i ordered? 3 JUMBO SET COST=$139!!! and I was shocked.. Everything was caught on act.. DAMN PS.. DATOU & JUJU U TWO VERY GOOD TO ME HOR! BLOG AND LAUGH ABOUT ME! 2nd of Aug Saturday Stayed at Home the whole day.. Received calls from one of my brothers telling me that his mother was robbed this morning.. at Blk 800+.. and that is where every morning the route that i walked to school.. okie i shall let you guys guess which race is the robber A)Indian B)Malay C)Chinese I shall let you guys guess! F%^& If i am able to met that guy i dont know izzit i sway or he sway? F$%^&*&^%$# DOG!